Running around in circles

Where am I going? I ask my self
I've decided to win this war, I've decided to win
got tired of running around in circles
getting dizzy with this spin!

Tired of tippy-toeing through landmines
strategically placed
where I am wired to step on 'em
where I am in the midst of waste

I've decided to press on
fight the good fight
determined to leave behind
the feel of pain, pride and spite

I have whats left of my jewels
in my heart and mind
enough to give me strength
that I always lose and find

a good man appreciates a woman who's wise
strong, determined and not to be despised
a woman who means well but unrewarded
yelled at called sometimes stupid , thwarted

how many times should I accept an apology?
In this life time and life history
running around in circles never learning the test
back's broken, breath is shallow, needing rest

You know you're in the presence of royalty
and do not deserve your mediocrity
maybe that's why you try to put me down
unconsciously beating me .. churn and wound

I've decided to win this war
I've decided to claim victory
leaving behind the memories
of my 8 years of misery

/heven7 122809